By Dawn Zurlinden
"I heard a fly buzz when I died" - a line from a poem by Emily Dickinson.
I invite you to stop reading a moment and imagine this. I don't have any recollection of the
rest of the poem and I am not sure what Miss Dickinson meant. These words, to me, symbolize it
all. They put in a nutshell what this teaching is about. Certainly this teaching is about death.
We walk down the Avenue of the Dead, dying, de-constructing, letting go of all our self-constructed
concepts, and then . . . a fly buzzes. This is life. At the moment of death - life. This line of
poetry is a portal itself.
I had a little death when I received this line. It was something greater and more elegant than my
small point of view at that moment, and I surrendered to the bigger picture. And in my dream I
shifted from corpse to fly so easily. I am the fly. I feel the sensation that, put into words,
might be called the buzz of truth - that it's all life! These words strung together symbolize
detachment from any one form of life or any single point of view. Life teems!
And these words are spoken after death -- who's talking? Awareness after a 'body' is dead, is free
to simply observe, merge, cohabitate a fly, be a fly and everything else in the scene - even beyond
the scene. There's nothing like merging with the present moment, and nothing like death to put us
there. Death of a pointy little point of view, that is.
May every buzz you hear from now on link you instantly into the essential hum of life! Feel all of
life in the present moment. Feel the buzz of the fly. Feel the impulse to move, to take action, to
fly. Death is life. The angel of death is the angel of life! When you feel the updraft of life,
take it; informed by an impulse that may not feel wholly your own. That's because it's impersonal.
It's life itself inviting you to create, with no other motive than the enjoyment of being in
communion with life!
Are you no longer compelled to act on old, narrow beliefs? Is there little reason left to protect
an image of yourself or to control an outcome? Experiment with taking actions that feel right or
good before the mind fully knows why. Or create with full clarity but without expectations. You are
already doing this to some extent, I'm sure. We are expressions of life and expressors of life, and
as expressors of life we are becoming portals for life. There's less and less personal agenda
clouding our eyes. They are becoming clear shots to infinite life. It's springtime and life is